post-the fault in our stars

So yeah, I just watched the fault in our stars, I'm so freaking lucky because i get to see it like I watched it 6 days earlier than everyone in my country. The movie that I have been waiting since last year, the movie that I've been dying to see. Actually I want to see gus. Even though you just can see gus in 2 hours long but that's my reason. So how is it after you watch? What do you feel? 

What do i feel? I feel numb. I can not feel anything. I feel like I already lost my soul and I'm not exaggerating it, i'm more than serious. I LOVE GUS. BUT I AM NOT PREPARED TO LOSE GUS EVEN THOUGH I ALREADY KNEW IT. Every time I read the book I always cry in the end and said "why gus? Why gus have to go? Why? It's not fair." And i know Gus is just a fictional character but THANKS TO ANSEL ELGORT WHO HAVE DONE AMAZINGLY ACTING AND BE GUS I JUST CANT SAY HOW GOOD HE WAS. I could feel gus alive in the movie. So yeah the movie goes just like the book, how Hazel met Gus and their stories. 

Let me just tell you when my heart got broken okay? So it's begin when the scene is in Amsterdam. When Gus finally tell Hazel that he was going to die. i almost crying so hard that time but it stopped until Gus' pre-funeral. When Isaac tell "I DISLIKE LIVIN IN A WORLD WITHOUT AUGUSTUS WATERS." And I cried so hard when it comes to Hazel's turn to speech. This quote is one of my favorite quotes from tfios, "Gus, I cant say how thankful I am for our little infinity, you give me forever... Within the numbered days.." And i cried, i cried so hard that I could feel the pressure in my chest. AND THE FINAL: when Hazel got the call, when Hazel found out that Gus is dead. she cried so hard and me too, and my friend too. Even while I wrote this I still can not forget the scene, the picture of hazel who crying so hard when she found out that Gus is not here anymore...

For me, as a reader and as an audience I love it so much. I love the fault in our stars more than anything, the cast, shai, ansel, nat they really did a good acting. All the characters feels so alive in the movie, the music, josh boone as director and of course lovely John Green who writes this amazingly beautiful book, thank you for making a perfect fictional character who has an amazing smile that slayed a thousands heart hahaha. I can't wait to watch it again! 6 days to go!

(p.s. : i wear black dress so it's like i attended gus's funeral... Haha:) love you gus)

Let me give a quote from TFIOS book, Augustus's letter:

"What else? She is so beautiful. You don’t get tired of looking at her. You never worry if she is smarter than you: You know she is. She is funny without ever being mean. I love her. I am so lucky to love her, Van Houten. You don’t get to choose if you get hurt in this world, old man, but you do have some say in who hurts you. I like my choices. I hope she likes hers."

Love always, 

Ret

[ E X T R A ] throwback to last year when ansel answered my twitter question woohoo :)

The Fault In Our Stars

For Gus, I know you are now in heaven, you can see all people that you loved from above there. I know that Hazel will always love you. She do love you, Gus. And so am I. I fell in love with you ever since I met you on the book. I think it's weird to fall in love with some fictional characters but I don't know. I cried when I know that you died 8 days after your pre-funeral. It was so sad. I can't even comment about this book anymore. Amazing. Sad, very sad. Funny. I bet you all girls if you read "The Fault In Our Stars" will definitely fall in love with Augustus Waters. He had his beautiful blue eyes and when you look at his eyes, in a second you are blushing, melting into his eyes and also he has a charming smile also, whenever you see him smile widely, you will also smiling him back. Oh, God. Augustus is definitely a guy that all girls want to be her boyfriend. He is romantic and funny. Can I have him?

The Fault in Our Stars tells a story about a girl, 16 suffering from cancer and her lungs suck being lungs and then she met a guy named Augustus Waters, in which he is so hot. Damn hot. And story goes on about their relationship. It will make you laugh and then cry, and laugh and cry over and over again. I heard that TFIOS will turn into a movie, and the cast who will play as Hazel is Shailene Woodley, I love her and Ansel Elgort will play as Augustus Waters! He is handsome, and cute and I think he has Gus' smile, I saw his smile in some interview on youtube so whatever. John Green did an amazing work and successful to make me cry. I cried after I read Looking For Alaska, and this time I cried more and more after I read TFIOS. I hope the movie will be as spectacular and awesome and sad and funny as the book. I hope so. I hope the movie will make me more cry than after I read the book. Hopefully. These are some visualization about the book and I think it contains some spoiler anyway, yeah I get it from Tumblr

So here it is the cover of the book, paperback or hardcover, well I you see this cover, I bet you already judge the book by its cover, but it's okay! It's good for this book. Because the book is really awesome. I also put a video in which the writer of this book read to you chapter 1 from this book. You should follow him on youtube! Vlogbrothers ; And i put the 2 pics below the video, the illustration one and the real pic with real people and.... it's Hazel Graze and Augustus Waters! The one pic is the illustration and the real pic is the cast for Hazel and Gus! Yippie! It's Ansel and Shai btw :)

(Pic above) It's Gus and Hazel. The real visualization. Thank God, at least I can see Augustus (again, bcs he will die in the book, ops spoiler sorry) Yeah, I can't wait for the movie. I heard that they will start filming on this month! 23rd of August exactly. Yeah I just can't wait.
UPDATE: So all the casts of tfios will begin shooting the movie on Tuesday 26th August, I'm so freaking excited and yeah, I will give you some update for the movie.

IT'S GUS AND HAZEL. YEAY! FINALLY. THEY MET UP AGAIN. And oh look at Shai's hair, she chopped her hair for charity and both for tfios movie. This is getting more interesting.

/ANYWAY. Can you give some advice? I am now feeling guilty again because I'm not studying and you know this feeling just sucks. I hate this. I just keep thinking the future which means it's good but I don't want this guilty feeling. So will somebody help me get through with this? Any advice please? /